I was reminded today..

just how finite this life truly is. Life carrying on just like every other day and than boom your heart drops when you research something that you see on a friend's FB post. The words on the post said "sad for OSU and the Budke family." My curiosity spiked because through my short time of coaching I had met Kurt Budke. What I didn't intend on finding was the report that head coach Kurt Budke and assistant coach Miranda Serna were killed in a plane crash. The tears begin to pour. I worked with Miranda at Fresno State. She had such a lively demeanor. She was upbeat and was a very driven individual. At moments, she seemed a little crazy, but that was the part that made you love her even more. We shared hotel rooms on road trips, but for some reason the thought never crossed my mind that one day I could possibly read about her death on the internet. My heart grieves. It grieves because I am not certain that she was a believer in Christ. Anger burns within at myself because at that stage of my life I was too selfish to care about others and what eternity held for them. When something like this happens it forces your faith to be put into action. My head knows the TRUTH, but do I BELIEVE it?! Its something that isn't easy to believe. In comparison, to humans Miranda was good and loving and kind. But, compared to a HOLY, PERFECT, INFINITE GOD, she was a child of wrath. Oh, how I hope she is a child of God because she had accepted Jesus as her Lord and Savior. Oh, I hope that she received the ONLY precious gift that is truly worth anything-Jesus Christ! I am unsettled within myself. Wanting to place blame on others, even questioning God, really how could you send someone to hell?! I am all for the ones who are really bad, but then I remember we are all sinners. We have ALL fallen short of the glory of God.That we ALL deserve HELL!!! That Jesus perfect and holy gave up ALL for us to be in right standing with God the Father. I don't deserve and you don't deserve the GRACE that God pours out on us. Even as hard as a moment as this GOD IS GOOD, ALWAYS!!!! He redeems and restores and reconciles. This event has shown me what truly matters- Jesus- nothing else. No, I can't make people follow after Christ, but I can share Christ with them. Oh, how I have bought into the lies of the Enemy in that I have nothing to offer and nothing to share, but I do have something to share the LOVE, GRACE, MERCY, and FORGIVENESS God has shown me through the precious sacrifice of Jesus Christ. My prayer is that through this event many others will SEE Jesus!!! Sadly, I can't go back in time, but I know that God can redeem. The Redemption Story-The Bible. I read it and I see even more clearly now, that this is absolutely the business of my Heavenly Father. I will trust my God- He is sovereign, He is just, He is merciful, He is good, He is gracious, He is slow to anger, He is love and I rest in His everlasting arms and that His ways are higher than my ways and His thoughts are higher than mine!