Empty Me!

Lately, this has been my favorite song. Its the cry of my heart these days. I have done enough in the world that even though those things are fun for a season there is nothing everlasting about it. It just causes me to be a very selfish, prideful, and cold hearted person. God has just been really "at me" lately. I am so thankful for that. Even through all of my wrongs God's unconditional love is still there. I am so grateful to know that it will always be there. So this song gets me at my roots especially the chorus part. I totally want to be empty of myself and totally be filled with everything that God is!

This is Chris Sligh's song- Empty Me

I’ve had just enough
Of the spotlight when it burns bright
To see how it gets in the blood
I’ve tasted my share
Of the sweet life and the wild ride
And found a little is not quite enough
I know how I can stray
And how fast my heart could change

Chorus:
Empty me of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition and the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds onto
Lord, empty me of me so I can be filled with You

I’ve seen just enough
Of the quick buys of the best lies
To know how prodigals can be drawn away
I know how I can stray
And how fast my heart could change

Chorus:

‘Cause everything is a lesser thing
‘Cause everything is a lesser thing
Compared to You, compared to You
Compared to You, so I surrender all

My walk with God has been a struggle for me. God is so breaking through all of the barriers that I have had. In my mind, its like I want everything that God is and if I can't have that then I am not sure what to do. In that statement, I mean to be the Proverbs 31 woman, to be everything to my family, to be this woman that is a prayer warrior, to have this most incredible relationship with God,etc. At times, its been so overwhelming to me. Which I know is not God. For me, its if I don't feel like I will be successful then I don't want any part of it. I have been reading the book Captivating and listening to a series on Walking in the fear of the Lord. God is truly ministering to my heart and breaking the religious mentality that I have had for so long, but wasn't willing to accept. The more I press in the more I hear God say, its your heart and its a relationship that I am after. Its not rules, its not what you should do,the appearance of you and so forth. Its just totally being in love with me, your Heavenly Father. Being at peace, with who He is and who He created me to be. I so desire to live at peace and know that all is well, all is well with my soul. That God is everything I need and so much more. I do feel I am at that point of wanting and desiring to be on a mountain top screaming at the top of my lungs my love for my Savior. Nothing will be right or settled in my life if my relationship with my Jesus isn't right. Yes, I know that there will be obstacles that I will face, but knowing that God is truly Lord of my life, my best friend, the lover of my soul, my rock, my refuge I know that He will see me through it all.

Walking in the fear of the Lord always through me for a loop. Obviously, I think well I am not suppose to "fear" God like I would fear walking through the woods at night, or an angry bear, or failure so what is it? The fear of the Lord, isn't well I shouldn't do that b/c God will strike me down by lightning. Because the bible says God didn't give me a spirit of fear, but of love, peace, and a sound mind. It comes down to my relationship. If I walk closely to God and worship Him for who He is then I will LOVE what He loves and HATE what He hates. That God will so consume my life that everything He is will be in me. Walking in His love is the greatest of all. To love people the way God loves them. So I am so thankful that God has been revealing Himself to me by opening my eyes and speaking to my heart. I so look forward now to my quiet times with Him. Its now out of my passion and love for Him and my relationship, not b/c as a Christian this is what I am suppose to do! I don't have to fret about who I am or worried about what others think or being accepted. God thinks the world of me, that He accepts me for who I am and loves everything about me, b/c He created me. My relationship and love for Him is what He desires most from me. B/c from that, He will work through me and use me for His purpose. AWE, what a refreshing thought, its none of me and its ALL OF HIM!